My laptop has officially died.
I mean the one that my brother handed over to me.
Its sooo sad la. I had it for like a month only.
The laptop apparently had the wear and tear thing.
So really it wasn't my fault.
I took care of it. Not once did I drop the laptop.
My argument is this, I tend to drop a lot of things. I admit that I am a clumsy person.
But I have never once dropped the laptop.
I scan the laptop for viruses and defrag the laptop regularly.
But it just died on me, the mother board was a goner.
If I were to get it repaired it'll be like 500 bucks worth.
So uncle Joseph said that I should just get a new laptop.
I was soo sad la cause like I've been waiting for soooo long just so that I could get his laptop.
And just when we did a swap, it died on me.
Mother fly la!
So now, Big Tita's laptop will be the temporary thing that I'll be using until I'm able to afford a laptop.
Its sooo sad la.
Anyways, today was a first day at school for us sec 5.
It was okay, but I'm starting to feel the pressure.
I won't take any chances cause I'm quite worried.
Anyways, I got to go now. I've got to force myself to bed again.
- Insomnia la bitch(:

Motivation: Don't be sad if you've been put down. Pick yourself up again because you are tougher then you know it. Believe in yourself and pass this exam. Just do your best. No stress baybehh.

It made sense to me.

Its 2010 already.
1 year passed like lighting in the sky.
And now its a new year and new memories to make.
Time for changes and about time I manage my time better this year.
Anyways, new years eve was alright.
Spent the New Years with the family last year.
All because I haven't been spending the New Years with the family in the past few years.
So I thought I'd make it up to them by attending last years New Years eve.
Well anyways, we saw the ships go "POOOOOOT POOOOOOOT POOOOOOT"
It was awesome la, its like musical for the ships.
I could hear drunk people shouting "Happy New Year!"
The people on the ships were throwing out signal flares on New Years.
It was pretty cool and they had like umm, fireworks and stuff.
So anyways, I got back only this afternoon.
And finally I got my haircut, I'm soo happy about that though.
I have my fringe back, it was tooo long before this.
I felt awfully sloppy and I was disgusted with myself.
But ohh well, its done and over with now.
I'm currently downloading Nick and Nora's Inifinite Playlist now.
It super slow la and I'm tired.
But somehow I just can't sleep la fuck.
I'm going to the church on Sunday, had to drag Damian alone.
Don't want to bring Aytie cause I'm afraid they might try to pull her into Christianity.
Hahaha, so no way am I taking that chance.
Anyways, I'm not going for the service just going to see the church members that I haven't met in a long time.
Then prolly we're off to somewhere else.
Trying to get Aytie to come meet me and Damian to follow me to Vallhall.
I'm planning to get a stick and normally she's there to help me out.
So I don't get lost in choosing the sticks. DUHH!
You know how slow I am in deciding.
I just don't trust myself in making decisions. Seriously.
Aiyahhh I'm damn lazy to type already la. So goodnight ah.

Hello again.
I was sooo suppose to blog this since monday.
Oh well the news is I'm done with work for this year.
Not too sure if I'm continuing next year. But I think I am.
Anyways, I've got to get strings and capo for my guitar and a christmas present for Jon.
I've got to pass it to fish and co. today cause I won't be able to join them tomorrow. Awwww.
Anyways, the last day at work was shit la.
It was a really busy day today.
Like non stop frying and cooking.
We had  a non-stop queue.
I was practically beat up at work la. Well, not literally.
Really really exhausted. I don't know why I felt that way cause I've been through worst crowds and customers.
After that I had to clean the fryer and throw the rubbish.
The rubbish was the worst. Mother Fucker!
It was soooo smelly I wanted to puke la.
And I had to throw all the rubbish by myself because aunty Andal was already doing the washing and Abby was already helping me wash the big things at the back and I was thankful for that.
If not I really don't know what time I will be able to get home.
Prollly 4 am? HAHA. I'll fucking scream la mother.
Thank god at the end Chan, Jon and Abby helped me count the food for my inventory.
And I had to do the checklist all cause aunty Andal needed to rush off.
I think aunty Andal can be really selfish sometimes but she helped we do a number of stuff that day.
So Whatever.
I hung out with Aytie yesterday and Izyan.
It was fun we did the jukebox game thing,.
Hhahaha, sounds like 2010 is gonna be a good year for me.
But its just a jukebox,
But poor Aytie, her world revolved over the same man, even her new years was the same man.
And well, for Izyan, it's a whole new different love story. Hahaha.
I miss my Ipod now. Aiyaaaahahhhhhhh.
Anyways, since I'm doing free text update for my twitter and facebook through my phone by using sgBEAT, I'm going to do it even more often now.
HAHAHAH I'm insane.

I think today I have been watching too many romantic movies.
Well not like those really slow ones like those teenager or slightly older love.
Well in short cut, I've practically watched sooo much snogging done in movies today that I've officially gone under a state of depression.
Its like people getting an orgasm out of looking at people snogging.
Okay, I know tooo much information.
But what the hell.
Rahhhh! I'm sooo feeling the love right now.
If only such things happen in life it'll be really awesome.
And hey, I think I prefer the word snogging instead of kissing.
Snogging sounds wayyyyyy better.
I wish I could get some sleep right now.
But I really am not tired.
I could just not sleep the whole night if I can.
I'm watching sooo many movies that I'm starting to forget the titles.
I remembered a couple though.
Ohh anyways. I'll blog soon I think.
Buhbye:D

I miss being sane again.
Or more like I miss getting my feet swept off the ground.
I was watching a movie called Angus Thongs and The Perfect Snogging.
I was sooo excited and smiling throughout the whole movie.
But at the end of it, I felt sad and confused.
Like I missed something.
I miss being in love, text messaging and snogging.
Just being loved I guess.
I've resorted to penpals now and I feel sad.
I feel like nut case.
I've seen girls, pretty girls and I envy them. I envy their self confidence.
I envy their looks and slim bodies that I wish I had if I haven't been gaining the weight when I was 10.years old.
I wish I had the perfect face like those beautiful girls have.
But I'm not like them and I wish I was.
Maybe then I'd have the perfect love.
I know people will tell me I'm wrong and that the inner beauty always shows.
Well, maybe I don't have an inner beauty.
And I feel like thats not the only thing that people look for these days.
I'm not just talking about boys but people.
People who surround you every single day.
I wish I was beautiful inside and out.
But I'm not and I'm upset about it.
I wish I had what those girls have. Confidence, Body, Smile, Humour, Talent, Attractiveness.
But I don't and I don't know how to. If only they had a guide book for dummies like me.
Then maybe I won't feel shallow all the time.
I feel like I'm not good for anyone not even my family.
I want something to be happy for.
I want perfection and beauty.
I feel unattractive, uglyness, fat like a bouncing ball, lame and low.
Like I'm a loser.
FYI I am sooo not desperate.
I just want to be somebody and so far my whole life I feel like I still am a nobody.
I wish I could be as confident.
But I guess I just don't have the time because I have to live up to my dreams.

I'm was just reading a post about this kid who doesn't really want school to end fast.
And it kinda annoyed me, just like how she's annoyed a lot of people over the years.
Somehow I think she has no interest in school.
She barely goes to any of the extra classes after school.
She barely made it for her finals.
She's doing her major papers next year.
I mean why be there if you don't want to?
She always like skip classes and she's complaining that she's sick of school?
I mean come on, if you think that high school is tiring, I don't think you can make it through life dude.
This high school thing is not even half of what tired really feels like.
I mean, don't take this as a mocking but seriously open your god damn given eyes and use it.
Use your senses and feel what is tired.
And have you forgotten that everyone and not only you that has to go through the same hard work of passing the exams too?
People who really can't toughen up really pisses me off.
I mean, I don't expect people to be tough all the time but come on la.
If you're gonna be dependent on people all the time, then seriously you won't be able to make it la.
Ahhhh shut up about all this shit la.
Mother Fucker.
I think I've been watching too much clips on www.clicknetwork.tv
The shows are fucking funny.
Every episode brightens up my day.
Go watch the videos there(:
I'll blog later when I'm bored. So later!